Category Archives: Personal

Exercises in Learning Dutch #2

I wonder if my teachers will decide that it isn’t such a good idea to ask an aspiring author to write a short piece of “freeform text” about a given subject, in this case, a restaurant. This time, I wasn’t … Continue reading

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Exercises in Learning Dutch #1

The first “free composition” exercise in my intensive Dutch learning course, so I had to write a short essay “In het cafĂ©”. Not easy to write anything well in just ten minutes or so, but inspired by the coffee I’d … Continue reading

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33 Years – That’s an LP in “Old Money”

Today marks 33 years since one of the most significant decisions that I ever made. On the 5th February 1990, waking up after a weekend of excessive consumption, and struggling to get myself ready for a new week in work, … Continue reading

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Reflections on Thought and Expression

For me, it’s been a particularly difficult and traumatic last few months of 2021. Not simply because of the whole covid situation, or the usual stresses of work; but because I started taking therapy over the Summer. I know that … Continue reading

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Loving you wasn’t easy.

Loving you wasn’t easy.

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Confronting our Demons

Confronting our own inner demons is the hardest battle we ever have to face, especially when they’re so deep-rooted after so many years: filling in the holes that each leaves behind with hope, because that’s all that I have at … Continue reading

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An Attempt at Poetry

It’s been nearly two months since my last post, two months trying to pull myself out from the state that I’d got myself into. 2020 isn’t a forgiving year, and I’m hurting myself and others with the darkness that I’ve … Continue reading

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Fear and Self-Loathing in Amsterdam

  I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I … Continue reading

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